I’ve observed that life will come at you as it will. I believe it manifests itself based on several things: Your thoughts, your wishes or intentions, and picking up whatever is in your path from the Collective Consciousness.
So what you see in front of you is a collage of inputs. It’s not there because you “deserve” it. Nor is it proof of something you did or didn’t do. It is, simply, what you conjured up. Therefore you are free to choose how you wish to experience it.
Now, the question is: What are you going to do with it? That is the central question to ask of everything.
Life isn’t about deserving or not deserving. Proof of your goodness or badness. It’s not about rewards or punishments. (I’ve often wondered if God would employ someone to keep track of all this. On a scale, I might add, that is not made clear to us.)
Life is about how we choose to be in relationship to whatever is happening around us. How do you want to relate to what your life is? What do you choose to do with what you have? Simple, but awesome.